I Don't Usually Blog

Cuz today is Father’s Day and i promised my dad i would spend it with him, but i DO NOT REGRET staying out late tonight. I met awesome new people, saw old friends, and had the best time with my simple best friends. Summer’s just getting started nigs, and if tonight was any indication, it’s gunna be one hell of a summer.

And i gotta say, as someone who doesn’t worry, i’m a tad bit worried. I’m worried about the people there. I’ve been there for 5 years and i’ve watched my friends change into near-unrecognizable people, and i’ve watched them drift apart. Now i’m not saying i’m totally against change, but we all wish some things could stay the same, like our relationships with friends.

Now i know most kids coming into high school see it as a chance to create a new identity for themselves, or to find an identity at all, but i don’t believe that every kid has a choice only between becoming a “slut” or a “smoker” or “one of the bad kids”. I really hate labels like that. My original group of friends, yea, they smoked, but they never became what being labeled a “smoker” implies. This is why i love those guys and why i hung out with them. They had their own identities and chose not to worry about what they think they “should” do cuz they smoke. Me, i chose to never smoke, and they respected that and never once tried to pressure me into smoking, or force me into an ultimatum where in order to hang with them i HAD to smoke. It was just a thing they did, it didnt define them or dictate what they did. And when people saw me with them they assumed i was a smoker, which is stupid but understandable.

These new kids give in too easy, high school eats them up, and i really worry for them (even though its totally stupid of me). These little kids that wear skinny jeans and act all cocky and stuff, i really wanna blast em in the face when i see em. But i’m a nice guy so i just feel sorry for them lol. To me its THESE kids that are the ones that have been swallowed up by the high school monster(lol), not the ones who still feel pressure, who feel an urge to just never come to school again, not because the classes are hard or boring, but being there in that personality diluter is hard. These are the ones that fight it, the ones that have trouble communicating, the so-called “socially awkward” ones that are called this only because they are trapped in a society which doesn’t accept them as they are, as they come. And these people struggle in their time in HS, some end up becoming the walking-and-talking dead, or drop out(which there is nothing wrong with, but MIGHT make life a LITTLE harder lol). These are the ones i worry for, and root for, and i wish em luck, and i wanna help em if i can, if they just need someone to TALK to, cuz its kinda in my nature to(which is another topic i might get into llllllaterrrrr).

Oh i’m also worried cuz my phone got turned off and i live far from my friends and my bike has a flat tire and i have no car and now that school’s over i have no bus permit so its hard to keep contact for spur-of-the-moment adventures, but i’ll find a way :D lol transmission complete.